Hopeless me..

Being alone in an unfamiliar and isolated place can be scary at times. Depression sets in everytime I finished work, when its time to go home. Since I am confined at home most of the time after work, there’s just absolutely nothing much activities for me to kill time other than watching tv,….watch tv… errr… and watch more tv’s !!!

I really had to accept the fact that there’s no turning back, therefore, I’ll have to accept whatever situation I am faced with. I guess, the hardest part for me is still to struggle so much to adapt to my new life here without my darling, being lonely after work, and staring into the ceiling of my room into the dead of night.

It then became so painful for me to find strength to carry on. I tend to become very vulnerable thinking about the state of my life at the moment and I would be filled with fears of uncertainties.

Dammit....I definitely do not want to live here forever.

I feel so small here.