Hang in there.
From the other end, I could felt something is terribly wrong with my darling. He sounded very moody and sad. It’s just not his usual self. It worried me the whole morning.
He never like to share his thoughts and feelings with me. He is those person who is not very good at expressing himselves. Unlike me, when there’s a problem, he’ll just put on a moody face, and keep everything to himself. Maybe it’s all because of my erratic attitude. I get mad whenever he tells me his problem, to which, it sounded very silly to me every time. Yeah… I have to admit I am so "devilish" for treating him that way.
I always thought that he ought to be sent to live in the space station from the way he thinks - always tend to over emphasize negativity instead of looking at the brighter side of life. For always reserving his feeling within himself and him being constantly skeptical about almost everything. Sorry for thinking that way darling….. but looking back, I’ve learned to laugh it all about our differences now.
What’s wrong darling?? What’s bothering u?
He later sms’ed me:
Darling, don’t worry about me. I can take care of myself. I missed you.
Me: Be brave. Sorry for not being there to comfort u. Not to worry, we’ll go through the hard times together.
Him: It’s ok… take care of yourself. Save all your hugs and kisses only 4 me. Love you.
Sighhh….
Darling,
I am really sorry for every moment of agony that I have put you through. I really don’t know how to make u understand that difficulties arise in the life of us all. I know you are having difficulties in reorganizing your life over and over again. Please have faith in yourself; it’s never too late for you to mark a new beginning and a new journey. Infact, you should be grateful to be given a chance to embark on a positive journey. It's gonna be a challenging time for you starting tommorow.
Like me, I am learning new things here everyday and it really put a tremendous pressure on me right now. Allot of things just seems impossible without having you by my side. At times, I wanted so much to give up. I feel tired too but I have to put on a brave front and a fake smile because I know no matter how hard or difficult life is, the world doesn’t stop for us to grief!! Remember how you’ve always advice and help me become a better if not wiser person?. For believing in me when I didn’t even dare to believe in myself?
I hope you’ll be strong too, we’ll go though the rainy days together……
Just for you ~ your little “Devil”
He never like to share his thoughts and feelings with me. He is those person who is not very good at expressing himselves. Unlike me, when there’s a problem, he’ll just put on a moody face, and keep everything to himself. Maybe it’s all because of my erratic attitude. I get mad whenever he tells me his problem, to which, it sounded very silly to me every time. Yeah… I have to admit I am so "devilish" for treating him that way.
I always thought that he ought to be sent to live in the space station from the way he thinks - always tend to over emphasize negativity instead of looking at the brighter side of life. For always reserving his feeling within himself and him being constantly skeptical about almost everything. Sorry for thinking that way darling….. but looking back, I’ve learned to laugh it all about our differences now.
What’s wrong darling?? What’s bothering u?
He later sms’ed me:
Darling, don’t worry about me. I can take care of myself. I missed you.
Me: Be brave. Sorry for not being there to comfort u. Not to worry, we’ll go through the hard times together.
Him: It’s ok… take care of yourself. Save all your hugs and kisses only 4 me. Love you.
Sighhh….
Darling,
I am really sorry for every moment of agony that I have put you through. I really don’t know how to make u understand that difficulties arise in the life of us all. I know you are having difficulties in reorganizing your life over and over again. Please have faith in yourself; it’s never too late for you to mark a new beginning and a new journey. Infact, you should be grateful to be given a chance to embark on a positive journey. It's gonna be a challenging time for you starting tommorow.
Like me, I am learning new things here everyday and it really put a tremendous pressure on me right now. Allot of things just seems impossible without having you by my side. At times, I wanted so much to give up. I feel tired too but I have to put on a brave front and a fake smile because I know no matter how hard or difficult life is, the world doesn’t stop for us to grief!! Remember how you’ve always advice and help me become a better if not wiser person?. For believing in me when I didn’t even dare to believe in myself?
I hope you’ll be strong too, we’ll go though the rainy days together……
Just for you ~ your little “Devil”
posted by Borneo King at 11/30/2005 07:11:00 PM
2 Comments:
Read your blogs. You must have been feeling terrible right now. Though I can never ever able to understand you pain, I still can empathise for you.
But it is good thing that finally it has revealed the kind of strong feelings you both have for each other. I believe this is just another phase in you life that will eventually make both of you even stronger (both personally and relationship wise) I wish I could do something to make you feel better.. but I know there is nothing.
As the old saying says.. time will heal all pain. You will eventually learn to love Allan form faraway places. But it is an ardous task though.
Just hang on there. Things will get better one day. Till then, be as strong as you can. People say that God will give burdens only to the level of how much you can carry.. not an ounce more. The more pain you endure shows just how strong you are buddy..
Take care.
i love yr blog!!!
Post a Comment
<< Home