Bad dreams.....

i went to bed quite early last nite after speaking to my darling over the phone. ealier, i had been doing allot of thinking about my future here in borneo and i was actually feeling abit angry and depressed deep inside. the more ithought about it, the more anxious i became.

Well, for some reason, my unconscious mind decided to wake me up by a terrible dream in the middle of the nite. Apparently, i was being chased by allot of people, and the chase just seems eternity...... i just kept on running away from them, and they just kept on chasing. i remembered i trumbled a few times, but i just kept on running, it was terrifying, just terrifying feeling.

all of the sudden, i just felt so vulnerable, all alone in the middle of the nite. i decided to call my darling. i just felt so relieved after hearing his comforting voice at the other end. i am so used to having bad dreams from time to time, but i remembered that evertime i had bad dreams, my darling always be by my side hugging me tight, comforting me, and it'll be dosing off to sleep in no time knowing that it's just a dream. but this time, i was so scared, i started to cry..... i just felt so lonely, insecure and depressed.