I'm Confused

This week has been of a constant high and low for me, and at the end of it, I am face with yet the biggest and hardest obstacle in my entire life. The decsion I make is gonna change my life entirely. Therefor, so much things are running in my mind right now. I am really at lost on what to do and what's next that gonna happen. It's been worrying, hectic and i felt as if the weight of a mountain are on my shoulders now.

i think the strain i am feeling right now has taken its toll. Today, i am at the bottom. This is the moment where i question myself whether the path i've taken was a mistake.

i've again sunk into a deep depression, suffered panic attacks and i am also refusing to talk to my darling about my problems at all, yet. i think i might as well talk to him after i've made up my mind on the path of life i wanna take.

So, please bear with me darling......